All problems are relative to the person, situation, demographic, & resources . The following “problems” are those faced by me, an admittedly privileged suburban woman with invisible (not obvious) physical challenges due to an inherited neuromuscular disorder called Charcot Marie Tooth (CMT).
The hashtag #firstworldproblems refers to those everyday, non life-threatening, and sometimes superficial ”problems” many of us encounter as middle & upper class suburbanites. Despite our various chronic conditions & physical challenges, most of us are fortunate enough to have our basic needs met, like food to eat & a roof over our heads. The absence of food & shelter = BIG PROBLEMS.
With that said, it totally sucks that my top 8 #firstworldproblems have to involve disability. Why can’t I just have ”normal” first world problems?, like for example, learning that Starbucks has discontinued my favorite latte, or that I can’t use my SkyMiles to book a vacation during winter break? Wait, I have those problems, too…Ugh!
1. It’s Hard To Stand Still While Being Spray-Tanned Naked
You wanna know what’s worse than standing buck naked in front of a total stranger while she closely examines and airbrushes every inch of your body
Standing unsteadily buck naked in front of a total stranger while she closely examines & airbrushes every inch of your body.
Even though it’s hard and I don’t enjoy identifying myself as disabled, I needed to have a conversation about my invisible disabilities with the spray tan place beforehand. You can read more on having these type of conversations, in my post, A Recipe For Asking For Help.
First, there’s the problem of taking off your clothing & shoes. When I began going to Sol Potion Spray Tanning Studio, they didn’t have chairs in their tiny changing rooms adjacent to the spray rooms. Once I explained my ”problem” to the owner/sprayer, she immediately took a chair from the lobby & brought it into the room.
I use a wall to hold on to when asked to bend over (sorry for the visual) and because I already told the technician that my balance sucks, she moves extra quick. Although the entire process is uncomfortable, it’s well worth it in the end. I mean, If I’m gonna make the effort to take off my leg braces and stumble around a pool in a bathing suit, I might as well attempt to camouflage my thigh dimples and look bronzed & healthy doing so, right?
2. I Won’t Win The ”Neatest Chip Pile” Award At The Blackjack Table
Due to progressive hand neuropathy, there are a lot of things I struggle with that once came easily…Like, writing with a pen, buttoning clothing, using a zipper, twisting off toothpaste caps, etc. On a recent trip to Las Vegas, I discovered yet another task that requires a steady hand and use of a pincher grip, playing blackjack.
When you lack fine motor dexterity, black jack chips are not easy to grip & hold on to. I quickly learned that the unspoken, ”stack your chips into neat piles” rule was a futile effort. Each time my fingers touched a chip, it felt like I was playing the nightmare game of Jenga, where you’re supposed to place pieces on top of an unsteady tower without knocking it down. Impossible.
Also, there’s a whole lot of hand coordination and math involved both not my strong suits. But, once the dealer got the hang of my ambiguous ”hits” and ”stays” and started to compute the math for me to speed things up, we eventually got on a roll; I was up $300 for about 30 minutes that day… until I wasn’t.
3. When Traveling, There’s A 50/50 Chance Of Setting Off Metal Detectors & Not Having Time For A Sit-Down Airport Breakfast
Airport Security Is a pain in the as$ for everyone, but especially for those of us with not obvious disabilities. I’m not gonna go on & on about the challenge of having to take off your shoes or explain why you can’t take them off & need to be patted down instead. Many of you have been there, done that.
But, here’s the really annoying part. In order to avoid the whole taking off my shoes or having to ”explain” that I wear leg braces and can’t remove them etc ordeal, I decided to make an appointment at the TSA office and pay for pre-screening. This, I was told, would allow me to go through the faster TSA pre-screened line where you didn’t have to take your shoes off or go through those scary (and hard to balance in holding your hands over your head) enclosed machines. Wrong!
There’s a ”randomly selected” clause in the TSA pre-screen agreement, which of course I didn’t learn about until I was randomly selected on the very first trip I took as a new TSA pre-checker. Those extra 30 minutes reserved for a healthy pre-flight/vacation egg white omelet, turned into a stress-filled wait for a Starbucks latte & a 3000 calorie chocolate chip muffin I stuffed in my mouth before boarding.
4. My Nail Technician Complains About Me In Vietnamese
I have switched nail places & technicians countless times. Unlike some of my ”able” friends who enjoy getting manis & pedis, I rank going to a nail salon, just slightly above getting my teeth cleaned at the dentist. Basically, I go because I have to. My fingers suck (hand neuropathy) & it’s difficult to grip & open things, so having decent nails sometimes helps. My feet, well….At home, I use an electronic file on a regular basis to prevent callouses, but my toenails need more TLC than I’m capable of providing.
The manicure problem is mostly during the polishing part. It’s like my hands have ADHD and literally cannot stay still while the technician applies polish and especially while waiting for them to dry. Pedicures are more involved because my feet are fused (they have metal plates inside to prevent movement/injury) and won’t ”turn” on command.
First, there’s the fact that I have to remove my leg braces sitting in a narrow space while curious onlookers take notice. Second, after the technician sees the leg braces, she inevitably begins to say random things about me in her native language to nearby co-workers. Then, I have to somehow communicate that I have a ”problem” with my feet, but there’s nothing she needs to do differently. eg. Please don’t skimp on the calve massage part.
I always leave knowing exactly what the technician is thinking when I leave: ”She’s a pain in the ass, but at least I got a good tip.”
5. I Can’t Hear All The Good Mom Drama From The Bottom Bleachers.
Can you believe they still make aluminum bleachers without handrails? When I was a school aged kid, the thought of tripping and falling down them was just as frightening as having to run relays in gym class. Despite those fears, my balance must not have been so bad back then, as I have a few memories of sitting with my friends at the very top.
I had a flashback about this last year when my son Blake was playing basketball for his high school freshmen team. When I arrived at the first home game of the season, a few dads I knew were already there and sitting on the very top level of bleachers. I waved and took a seat near the bottom. Actually, I sat on the very bottom and then scooted my ass up another row so I could at least see the game.
When my mom friends arrived, they stopped by my unofficial ”handicap” and grandparent area to say hi and chat for a minute, before making their way up to join their spouses at the top. I experienced what teenagers call FOMO (fear of missing out) that day. I wanted so badly to have the balance to get up & down from the top without assistance, but I knew the risk wasn’t worth it. So, I sucked it up as those of us with physical challenges learn to do.
Don’t even get me started on stadium seating at concerts. At least there, I blend in well with the unsteady drunks.
6. I Can’t Slide A Hotel Key Card & Hold Coffee At The Same Time
I haven’t done a study, but, I’m thinking that those hotel ”security” elevators that won’t budge without using a key card, rarely if ever, hinder actual crime. I mean if you’re a ”bad guy”, wouldn’t you just take the stairs anyhow? Unless you’re a bad guy with physical challenges, the stairs are a lot faster, right?
Those ”security” hotel elevators are pointless and just an added stressor for those of us with weak hand grips & other disabilities. It’s hard enough to hold the flimsy key card still in order to open the room door. How do they expect people to bring hot coffee back to the room and fidget with a card one handed? Perhaps, key card elevators were never intended to provide added security, but instead, were a genius hotel marketing ploy to increase the number of guests ordering overpriced room service?
No way I’m falling for it – Next hotel stay, I’ll just use the deadlock on the door to prop it open while I go & get coffee and wait until someone else goes into the elevator with their key card. Hopefully, said bad guy isn’t reading this.
7. I Take The ”Fine” Out Of Fine Dining.
I’m a hot mess most of the time, but especially when eating.
People are always picking food out of my hair or alerting me to imminent food stains & potential disasters. ”Be careful….there’s ketchup on your elbow” or, ”I’ll get some club soda ….it’s hard to get zip sauce out unless you treat it right away.”
There are always crumbs on my lap when I stand up to go the bathroom, and busboys tend to give me confused looks in between courses, when they have to clean up more than just the salad plate.
I am also a bit high maintenance when ordering (my family if reading this, is definitely shaking their heads in agreement). ”Please, may I have a tall glass with ice and a straw, NOT a stem glass.”, ”Can you please chop the salad… I have trouble with my hands?”
When I was a little girl, my mom enrolled me in a manners class called, White Gloves and Party Manners. They taught us table etiquette like, how to set the table, which fork to use with what course, and how to eat ”like a lady”. I’m thinking of creating a table manners workshop for people with invisible disabilities. I’ll share all of my best ”eat like a Lainie” secrets and giveaway Tide To Go Wipes and designer inspired adult bibs.
8. My Halloween Costume Choices Are Limited
I didn’t really love playing dress-up or even trick or treating as a kid. It was ok when I was a young girl and just went to a couple of houses with my dad and sister in toe. But, I hated it as a pre-teen. This was before I had to have surgery on both ankles to prevent them from turning/breaking and well before I began wearing leg braces as adult.
I’m sure I would have liked trick or treating had it been with just 1 or 2 friends, but we went with large groups of girls, and it was always a struggle to keep up & not trip over whatever last minute princess gown I found at Kmart.
But, the last 10 or so years, I’ve been invited to an annual adult only Halloween party given by a fun couple in my neighborhood. The year before their first party, my whole world changed when I found a pair of knee high flat leather boots that I could walk in & that fit comfortably over my leg braces. They were a total game changer as I was no longer destined to a life of frumpy dresses and I found I could look stylish pairing short dresses with tights and tall leather boots over my leg braces. You can read more on finding boots for afos/leg braces in my Boots are A $#&# blog .
But, there are only so many age-appropriate and somewhat sexy Halloween costumes that work with tall flat boots. Believe me, I’ve spent endless hours searching on Pinterest. I figure Batgirl has another 2-3 years max before she’s forced into retirement.
What do you think? Can you relate to any of my #firstworldproblems? Please share your thoughts in the comments section below. I love hearing from my Imperfectly Perfect friends.